One of Those Days!
Well it has been “one of those” days! Actually it has been for 2 days now. Days filled with those little, dopey, annoying things!
I knew I needed to update the software I was using for my websites, especically for this particular website…. And that would also mean I needed to update WordPress on my server…. Hmmmm - I really was not thrilled about this as I am not a computer wiz - I get by, but I am no wiz!
I was dreading doing this upgrades as I didn’t want anything to get messed up here. That is probably not the best thoughts to be carrying around…. and I knew it!!
So - a couple of weeks ago - when the upgrades were ready - - I knew I was Not Ready!! I knew I needed to do lots more work on how I was thinking about this before I ever touched it!!
So when I would think about losing all my info or having the website down for days — I softened those thoughts… and softened them and softened them.
Finally Sunday afternoon I thought - OK this is perfect - I was home alone I had all afternoon to concentrate on this updates and conversions…. OK - I’m ready.
I did the software update - I then had to convert my copy of this website — Ahhh this is all going good - all I have left is to go to my server and update Wordpress then deal with deleting some files and adding the new converted files. Now this does mean the website would be unaccessible but if all goes well it would only be for a few minutes…..
Hmmm here came that dread again - - So I decided since it was afternoon - I should wait till late at night when the website isn’t so busy - and maybe I will feel better about it then!
So late Sunday night - I set it all up and……………… Well it has been interesting!
Truthfully it wasn’t so bad - but I did have some errors showing up on a few of the pages. And then there was these odd alien looking characters that are now scattered about my articles!!
Was I surprised? No not at all! I truthfully was having those dread thoughts! I knew it and I kept changing them - but I had motiviaton in the dread direction! 
I do know had I done this 2 weeks ago - I promise you the results would have been lots worse!
I tried to fix the errors last night — but that was not happening…. So I contacted Jeff who is the developer of the Rapid Niche Software and left him a message. And I was able to let it go and go to sleep.
Today - as I played with the site - every now and then I could feel myself going to start to get antsy. I just reminded myself that this truly was not a big deal - this was going to get fixed! I was even able to watch a movie tonight (Ray Charles) and relax.
There was a time I would have sat for hours and hours and hours and hours at this computer trying to fix this. As each hour would go by I would have gotten angrier and angrier and angrier — which would have created me more grief!
Jeff contacted me this evening and we got the wordpress errors corrected. We fixed a few more issues and the site is working well now! There are still strange alien characters scattered about the articles - I will work on those tomorrow!
So — if you have emailed me in the last 2 days or left a comment - I did not forget you! I will get back to answering emails and reading comments tomorrow! If you find something is not working on the website - Please contact me and let me know!
I hope you are enjoying your day everyday! Even if it is scattered with little alien characters! 
Oh how I know those days. But the clouds do clear and “contrast” is often what makes the sweetness sweeter!
Hello Robert…….
Soooo nice to *see* you here! Yes the clouds do clear and the view gets clearer — or as you say — sweeter!
And the contrast allows me to fine-tune my desires — this one let me know — in the near future I will have a web guy/gal who can do the updating stuff — I have sent that desire out the the Universe loud and clear!
Hi Ellie
I can completely relate to what you are saying! And have recently been having more of ‘those days’.
And even though I love writing on my own blog, I have been struggling a little, and taking far too much time, or more time than I normally would. I read the words I write, yet I struggle to actually see what I have written! Does it make sense? One of those days!
(BTW - I linked to one of your articles too - and put a little extract from it on my blog with a link back to you - I hope this is ok - the article about- ‘are you worthy of worthiness’, because it fit so well with what i was writing - well trying to write!
This is not a time to make important decisions I think - as I too, will be entering into the world of word press blogs and away from blogspot. I am not a techie whiz either, so am hoping that I can get help from Jeff too - yes, I bought the rapid niche websites software - yet to install - but i have heard nthing but good - and it is a great way to keep up with all the upgrades needed.
and ‘those days’ - there will be less of them eventually!
anyway - thank you Ellie, for such a wonderful place to be - thank you for being so personal and open. I see you have a large community and I am not surprised.
You are a beautiful soul
Kind Regards
Megan
Hi Megan….
So good to *see* you here! I totally relate to the struggle you speak of… I have “been there - done that!”
For me — I need to let go of judging me - I need to allow me my own space and timing. If I write 4 times this week and only once for the next 2 weeks. I need to allow that to be OK… I need to know it is all in perfect timing…..
I’m zipping out of here this morning, on my way to Albany for the day - but I did get time to click on over to your blog. I Love It!! Thanks for the link in your post!
I will certainly be back to visit you when I have more than a few minutes!
And…. I will see you at the forums for rapid niche software!
Happy New Year!
Namaste
Ellie