Comments on: I Keep Catching Myself….

By: Ellie

Ellie — Mon, 30 Jun 2008 18:09:14 +0000

Hi Muriel….

Well as you know trying to force the feelings away = what you resist will persist…

So – by accepting how you feel, as you have decided to do – is what will work!

I make peace with were I am at – “I feel this way – I really don’t want to feel like this – but this is what is going on right now. There is no right or wrong here… I know I’ll get over this – I know I want to feel good!”

Then I Let It Go! That is a very important piece — let it go – get off the subject – go for a walk – read a book – play solitaire – or better yet do something that requires 100% of your attention. If it comes up 422 1/2 times – make peace with it and let it go 422 1/2 times!

Why is this happening? There could be a gazillion answers to that! I know for me “hormonal” means my body is not feeling 100% – If I am not feeling good – I am much more vulnerable to angry, frustrating thoughts!

Don’t try to figure out the why — let go of the why… The search for the why just keeps you fixated on what is not feeling good!

You are doing AOK!! All is Well!!

Big Hugs

By: Muriel

Muriel — Mon, 30 Jun 2008 16:05:27 +0000

This is a great article and I read it today because I need support with the angry feelings I have been having the past couple of day. I do not even know where they are coming from…. But, I have felt short tempered and just miserable. I feel like I’ve taken a step backwards. I try to tell myself that this is not what I want to feel, and that does change my vibes a bit — only not for long. I feel like I am trying to force the bitterness out of me, which does not work. I tell myself constantly that “I feel good”, and my Committee Members pipe up and say, “Yeah Right!!!”. I run through my appreciations, but this does not change my mood…. Maybe I am hormonal and just want to feel sad, but I have to keep trying to change my vibe to a higher level. Only I don’t want to push it. So, I will be angry today and see what occurs tomorrow when I wake up to my “feel good” statement. Thanks for reading and for any supportive replies.

By: Ellie

Ellie — Sat, 28 Jun 2008 18:53:33 +0000

Hi Shargo….

Thanks so much for sharing….

First let me say – You are perfect right now in this very moment! You are perfect in every moment!

As for being or not being advanced — I would say it is not about being advanced – it is all about – I have reference points today – as I stated I have experienced the transition of 3 major people in my life.

No feelings are negative or positive — feelings are feelings and they are an indicator of where we are vibrating.

“No judgment” – is always my goal — I do not want to judge situations, other people and/or myself!

I look to make peace with every situation…. When Gale transitioned ( http://livingthelawofattraction.com/about/life-changing-event/ ) I was extremely sad! I let my sadness be OK — I allowed that sadness knowing I wanted to eventually reach a place where I could be find joy again!

Allow yourself you sadness – do not push against it… As you know pushing against just causes more sadness and confusion!

Allow yourself the pain — you can have pain and feel hope… Hope that you are feeling better everyday – hope that you are indeed expanding – hope that there is indeed a light at the end of this and you are lining up with that light as you are allowing and loving yourself!!

Big Hugs to You!

By: shargo

shargo — Sat, 28 Jun 2008 17:40:26 +0000

Ellie,
I want to thank you for offering this experience. I have been struggling to find the good feelings- telling myself that I have a choice right now but the pain takes over, it seems too intense, the pending loss so huge. Then I get upset because I know how this law of attraction works and I not as advanced as I think. I believe that energy just changes vibration but pushing away the sad feelings makes me feel a different kind of bad. Sad feelings are negative because society has told us this – I am beginning to think that it is the judgement on my emotions that is causing me the trouble and not the sad feelng. Is it possible that grief is needed for our own expansion? If emotions are energy then the sad feelings would be creating new = expanding. I read both of your posts and what stood out for me was the absence of jugement. This is a wonderful lesson for me, not sure that was the intention but I do thank you

By: Ellie

Ellie — Fri, 27 Jun 2008 05:16:51 +0000

Hi Patricia…

Thanks so much for your kind words….

This has been an extraordinary couple of weeks… I am certainly still digesting this all…

And I know much more will be revealed as I allow it all to settle in!

Again thanks for your kindness and support!

Hugs

By: Patricia

Patricia — Fri, 27 Jun 2008 01:31:47 +0000

Dear Ellie,

What you lived so few days ago was really important, a strong experience.

I would suggest you take it easy and don’t be too harsh on yourself.

Sometimes we are harsh because we make us feel worse thinking bad thoughts instead of good thoughts but sometimes we are also harsh by demanding from ourselves to better than we actually are.

If I were you I would just focus. On what? On the good aspects of the experience, which are many, including the fact of your missing Marria’s presence! That means you loved her company…

You do know now that death is not terrible, that is part of life. You even learned that Marria transitioned in the best of ways, consciously choosing so many details of it: the place, the company, even the time! But any of us would feel sad of having lost a friend! Even if you believe she just “moved”… you get sad when a friend moves abroad because you know you won’t be able to see him/her in a long time and you’ll miss him.

I’m super sure that these contradictory feelings you are having now will settle in a very short while. In the meantime, just be yourself and know that you are the best you.

If you need to talk, don’t hesitate to write to my e-mail address.

Love.