Today we had to bring Kuva, my chocolate lab, to the vet to have a growth removed. I wrote about Kuva last month when it was his 11th birthday. He is a big happy boy….
In all these years he never had an operation, never was under anesthesia. I was a little concerned…
I called the vet during the day and they told me everything went fine, he was resting and we should pick him up at 6PM. We got there a few minutes before 6 and the vet came out to see us. She told us she had found a small growth right next to the big one so she took that one off too. OK – Good I thought… Then she said something about the biopsy results…. Right away I told her I did not want to know the results.
“You don’t want to know the results?” “No I don’t want to know.” I said “He is 11 yrs old, he has hardly ever been on any medication. If you told me he had cancer – I would not subject him to any chemo or harsh medicine anyway. So why would I want to know?”
She wasn’t too thrown – she has been Kuva’s vet for years… Not that we go there that often… but she knows me.
Then she said “Well you would know what to expect.” – - – “Exactly” I said “And that is why I don’t want to know. I only want to expect that he has a good life and when it is time for him to move on – he will.”
She then told me if she did this biopsy she legally would have to tell me the results…. “Then don’t do the biopsy…. because I don’t want to know.” – - It seems to me I saw a flash of remembrance in her face…. Years ago they found a lump on his chest – She asked me if I wanted it biopsied – My answer was “No”
Bad choice? Not for me… nor, I believe, for Kuva. He has developed several growths – the only reason we had this one taken off is because of it’s location – it was going to make it difficult for him to go to the bathroom. And while he is 11 he is still full of life. He is a little stiff sometimes when he first gets up – but mostly he wants to run for his frisbee… he wants to kiss you all over… and he loves to sing! He is a happy boy.
Why don’t I want biopsies? That feels right for me – and when I say me – I mean even my own physical body. I personally was told to have a biopsy over 34 years ago – I never had it done … and I am doing AOK!
Is that right for everyone? No – You have to follow what is right for you!
I had to smile as she told me the reason I would want to know the results of the biopsy was so that I would know what to expect. Today I get to choose what to expect… I don’t want anyone filling my head with things that could or might happen.
As Abraham says:
“In other words, when you have an expectation, you’ve got a dominant thought going on, and Law of Attraction is going to deliver that to you again, and again and again.”
I get to choose what reality I look at….
Kuva is now home resting…. He was wobbly when we came home – he laid down and he is settled in for the night. Though he didn’t eat much tonight – which is very unusual – he did give me lots of kisses.
My expectation is – he will recover from this quickly and live his life in his own way…. and I will continue to facilitate that in anyway I can. 
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"There are No Mistakes..... Only Discoveries!" TM ~ Ellie Walsh
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This is a very eye opening post. Usually we have a tendency to think that if we don’t always get the results, then we are doing something wrong to our animal. That we are bad pet parents. I always keep the thought in my mind (whether I ask for the results or NOT) that my animal(s) have a stream of Well-being, Universal love and Health love flowing to them at all times. Big hug to you and your dog Kuva
Hi Ellie,
This seems very brave…at least for me it would be ,but I LOVE the energy and LOVE you’re sending to all of us.
I’m sending that LOVE right back to you and especially KUVA!!xxoo
Hi Coryelle
We are taught to follow the “authority” figures…. Today I am my own “authority” figure. I listen to my voice and follow it. And… I choose my expectations – not take on the expectations of others.
Kuva sends you hugs!
Hi Tim
Most important is to follow what feels right for you!
I’m thrilled that you feel the Love – that is my passion!
Thanks for sending the Love all around!
Dear Ellie,
You did the right thing. I agree with you sooo much.
What to expect is our choice only!
Lovely post.
Hugs and kisses, and excellent recovery for Kuva.
Patricia
Hi Patricia
So good to *see* you! Yes we get to choose our expectations — which means we get to choose what reality we live! We are indeed that powerful!
Big Hugs to You!
Thanks! Hugs to you too.
Great story Ellie and great choice. I’m sure and hope Kuva makes a full recovery. He sounds likes a lot of fun.
Andrew
Hi Andrew
Kuva is doing Fantastic – he is indeed lots of Fun! And I continue to choose my expectations! All is Good!
Great post. I love that you did not dance to the tune of the vet. I am often called stubborn by people who do not know me well, but I do not believe that I am stubborn. I just choose to follow my intuition which may or may not seem “logical” to others.
I wish Kuva a speedy recovery.
Hi Carol
I sooo identify with being called stubborn when I don’t do someone else’s dance! I’ve also been called arrogant because of that – I’m not stubborn nor arrogant – I’m confident because, as you say, I follow my intuition – my inner voice!
Kuva is AOK! He never seemed bothered by any of this. He just goes with the flow. He teaches me great lessons!
Thanks so much for sharing!
Hugs